"Those were hard things for me to come by, and I offer them to you for what they may be worth." - Toby Wolff



Showing posts with label Transparency. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Transparency. Show all posts

Sunday, August 22, 2021

A Rose in the Crabgrass


 
It's the quite of evening
as everything downshifts 
to a slower beat.

No place to be.
Someplace to stay.

Birds and bees have gone wherever they go,
silently waiting for tomorrow to take flight 
again...to my dogs delight.
His needs so simple,
mine so complex,
I fear they are unmeetable....

until I look in my husbands eyes
and that way he strips the wallpaper I've hung in disguise,
the way he rids the garden of weeds
I've planted as flowers.

He knows a rose from crabgrass,
so why this farce?

I keep thinking I can get away with it.

Thursday, September 1, 2011

Rebellious Bones




When he forced himself into her mouth, she gagged
told herself it was just a reflex...simple addition and all that.
But with her mouth so filled, it was hard to tell herself anything.

She fought behind her nipples though
and spread her legs into a mouth...labia forming pubic obscenities
which felt shouted. She sure as hell heard 'em!

We all know such things are carried into our silence by fear,
but it felt like she declined surrender
and she praised herself for it
for awhile.

Finally, it was her ribs that rebelled.
It was her ribs that never forgot their origin OF, not AS.
They cracked apart like wish bones and found their parallels and intersections
building of themselves a crude ladder.

Into her mouth, words effervesced...opinions
her opinions
HER OWN

With such notions escaping, such unpopular notions, (and at that she laughed...for hadn't 'agreeable' at one time or two hundred been a goal?) there was no longer space for him inside her mouth. Only between her ears.






(This piece is about the way I was raised for the most part. It is a story about the removal of a gag that I carried into my marriage. I felt such a need to be agreeable, to accept another's opinions as my own. I felt guilty for having opposing views. Ribs, and OF verses AS have biblical significance for me.) 
.
.
.
.