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Tuesday, May 22, 2012

"With Sympathy" is not sufficient...

A blogger (a friend) I know, have known, since before...
Oh man...to say it

Since before the world became a incoherent swirl
since before there was a name spoken
not yet engraved

I hate this part of life...
release, without consent, to

More than death
what startles me is my sorrow.

We've not met
I've not held your infant
but he grew beneath me in the words you cradled him in
and I knew him
well...I knew him through you
well...I knew you through this
and I knew this through many

And the same avenue that brought him to life for me
takes his life.


And there are none.

I'm so proud of him, you, her.
So little
and yet so much he became...


  1. Oh, isn't it crazy how we come to deeply care about bloggers we "know"? Crazy, but true. And there is a comfort in the fact some people stay and read our lives and thoughts and that actually care. This post was an example of that.

  2. And the same avenue that brought him to life for me
    takes his life

    annie, what? who? i feel i should know, maybe because i want to be-part before i am.

    i do know you write a loving deep tribute.

    and i do know the relationships of blogging are as real and as true as any could ever be. real friends and deep love has come from the blogs.

    i'm sorry for the loss you honor.


  3. Annie,
    we have become more than we cared to promise..A fruitful existance in this world as compared to the barren one in the real..

  4. Very sad and tragic, but saving another life is always beautiful. Poignant.

  5. I've met some really nice people on blogger. You, being one of them, blogger is more like having modern day pen pals, some, I have met in the flesh, others are just too far away.

  6. It's funny isn't it? How powerless we are in the face of other people's loss. We lose by proxy but it is nothing like the same. I find myself praying at times like this .... I expect The Universe or Whatever Is Out There to understand that I don't understand why things have to be this way, and I don't understand why loss in a universal experience, and I want someone somewhere to intervene and lessen the pain of it for those losing someone dear. I wish ... ah Annie, I wish. Says it all really. Warmest hugs xx Jos

  7. A bloggers 18 month old baby has died suddenly. They have donated his organs and part of him will live on in this way. It's an unimaginable grief...to lose a child.

  8. i'm so sorry for your friend's loss.

  9. Oh, thank you, Annie. I recently had a blogger friend die, and it is odd to think how much you can bond to someone you never met, through thoughts and prayers and shared experience.

    My brain is mashed potatoes, or I'd find something pithy to say.

    I will add this: our community is out of control right now. They are pinning green ribbons all over the place, which is a sign of organ donation. I'll put up more about it next week, but it has taken on a life of its own. The mayor is going to propose we form a committee to raise awareness, in Dastan's name.

    How amazing is that.

    - Eric

    1. Pretty damn amazing! The community, the mayor, and little Dastan pulling together. You are all so brave Eric...to be front and center instead of hiding in grief. I'm not sure I could be that strong.


  10. I'm so sorry for your loss, my Annie. I love you and send hugs. xoxoxo

  11. your words are so aching, lovely, haunting, thank you.

  12. ha dear girl you must remember this no one is busier than a new mother not even the President of the USA

  13. 18 months....... thank you for reminding me to be grateful for 23 years...

  14. I misread somehow, I can't imagie worse pain, and I've run through the gamut...but not that neve that...there are no words

  15. Can't imagine such pain :(

  16. Your words are stunning, honest, with so much depth in their unfathomable sorrow.

    It's startling how you invite us in to your shaken world. A 9 on the Richter Scale.

  17. Yes I do think yes!!!!!!

  18. Hi Annie, I hope you are well!
    And prayers to the family of the departed


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