"Those were hard things for me to come by, and I offer them to you for what they may be worth." - Toby Wolff

Tuesday, April 9, 2013


Me - 2 yrs old chronologically

Hey Annabelle,
I found the magic you were missing!
It crossed my desk
as an afterthought I grasped
like a kite tail.

And here we are my sweet
on nothing more than a patch of the world...
never a place you would imagine, but
here, redwood giants
aging like the old bones of women
creaking against
bees that hover
absent from their purpose,
just looking at us Annabelle!
No sting in sight!

The garden is a start-up
but the tomatoes have had sex
and the babies are on their way,
my mouth wide and watering
for them, pestering my apron.

You'd be happy here, my love
if only you could
cross over
all that shit.

Tuesday, April 2, 2013

Measured Fear

Do it afraid
that thing that makes your lips quiver
and your heart make sound enough
that it is base drum to the fear.

Do it afraid
the woman who seems out of your league
the job interview just beyond your skill
the conversation, dusty with need
the competition you could lose
the boundary wanting discipline
the discipline out of balance with joy
a song in front of a microphone
the painting in want of a canvas

that line you'd like to cross
a bridge you wish to burn

saying "I love you"
the life altering reply

asking for help
admitting defeat
offering your heart
facing the mirror
destroying the image
standing naked
a sober moment
holding on
letting go

Whatever it is
do it
push through

Here is your growth measured
inch by inch