"Those were hard things for me to come by, and I offer them to you for what they may be worth." - Toby Wolff



Friday, January 27, 2012

Hung Up




I've hung this prayer like wallpaper
lining up the seams
pasting the trailing vine against structure
and stepping back to check my work
for completeness and rigidity.

Everywhere I turn
this my vision
until it lost all sense of the familiar...
as foreign as another's hand
at the end of my own arm.

I've recited this invocation so often
I became an actor within it
the sentences coming loose of the script
and nouns stepping out of character
to confer with one another.

From the fallen word, letters
wriggled away like souls
departing in legion, but not free
caught with their work undone
                between.

I watch them reassemble into song
hauntingly familiar, the score of which
papers my walls.
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19 comments:

  1. The beauty and completeness in your work brings tears to my eyes.......you inspire......thank you for spilling your words on the page.

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    1. Thank you. I tend to spill a lot. Someday I hope to glow instead.

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  2. I read of the of the struggle to get everything just right, knowing it can not be, an impossibility. I wonder at this ability, to come so close. The flaws here can’t be seen. Wonderful writing.

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    1. I think it's a struggle I need to let go of. I will never get everything just right. EVER. It's not an attainable goal and when the priority of it outbalances more attainable things, we are hung up facing the impossible on all sides.

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  3. You've documented the strange transition from owning one's words to being owned by them.

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    1. Yes, or perhaps defined or imprisoned by them.

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  4. I spent a long time thinking over this picture thinking if it's possible to do what she does. Then I spent a long time over your poem thinking if it's possible to do what you do.

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    1. Must be. There is a picture. There is a poem. And yet I suppose each could lie.

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  5. I love you, sweetest Annie. You could walk on the ceiling if you wanted to. Your words are magic and they are your heart & your truth. I believe that. (I got your amazing card and it made me cry. The best ship is friendship, bar none. The best love is friend love...I'm glad I made you smile with my little bits of stuff...)

    I read this quote by the awesome singer/songwriter/poet Lucinda Williams and it blew my fucking mind in its depth and simplicity:

    "Who says, "Above all, the listener should be able to understand the poem or the song, not be forced to unravel a complicated, self-indulgent puzzle. Offer your art up to the whole world, not just an elite few."

    I find your poems as clear as the blue sky on a Winter's day. Keep on scribbling, Annie. Scribble as if your life depends upon it, because it does. Love, Hugs & Blessings. xoxo

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    1. I'm glad they are clear Marion. GAWD how I strive for clarity...in life and in writing. It is important to me. I know others have no issue with ambiguity, but for me it is almost like speaking in tongues without an interpreter. You always make me smile Marion. Your rants and off color remarks are so damn MARION! I cannot help but smile at you being exactly you. Love you dear friend.

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  6. 'nouns stepping out of character
    to confer with one another;

    what an image! and to think through all the uncertainity the end is a collective harmonic song (i'm sure of it) :^)

    fine fine fine piece of writing here. each word is gold. not one lacks currency

    why does this poem strike me as a transition? is it a transition, annie? i hope so. there comes a time when half way is winding down not up and i want that for you because you so deserve it.

    with love
    kj

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    1. I suppose it is a transition. I cannot continue to pray the same prayer to which the answer has been "No". I am the annoying child. "Daddy, Dada, Poppa, Father....DAAAADDDDDYYYYY!" Now I have no prayer beyond "show me what to do." That in itself is enough. Thank you for thinking it fine KJ. You are merciful and kind.

      Love you too.

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  7. This is a wonderful piece...I have felt this way..I bow at your talent!

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  8. Sometimes my prayers feel this way too - more like rituals or superstition. Get everything right, do everything the right way, so I can get what I want. The words end up owning and swallowing me and I, wanting to be so full of faith, am empty instead, being devoured by a need for perfection. God only answers the prayers of the perfect, I used to think.

    Several years ago I began a long, slow journey of kicking my perfectionist in the teeth, and it has done me wonders.

    Come as you are. Your words are enough. Your intentions are enough. This is not a ritual, it's a dance. And you are not a vase meant to be perfect. You are clay.

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  9. Very beautiful! The words all fall into place ...

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  10. Whoa! I'm not sure I've ever seen anyone personify nouns and words. That was wonderful!

    I watched a show about a guy who said his foot wasn't his foot. He said it didn't belong to his body, and he froze it off with LN2 (Liquid Nitrogen).

    Don't do that with your hand, Annie. Bad idea! How would you clap?

    ;)


    - Eric

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  11. love it,

    the image grabs me instantly, powerful poetry.

    :)

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  12. what a nice, fresh breath of insanity.

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  13. this is really great.. losing familiarity within oneself and being encapsulated in a new reality. i really the foreign hand at the end of my own arm.

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Thank you for listening.